The power of choice & realization

Is time to make a choice if I want to bring life I must die to what I love.. if I want to leave up a legacy I need to give up comfort and what I think is so important for me..... the question is would I be able to do it?

Conquered.......

Yup it was after my trip to Thailand and I saw this photos.... oh my oh my... I started and realized I need a life changing experience... and the weight will NOT come off, for 3 months I have been working out pretty much every single time I have off and the weight has dropped only 6 KGM........ YET I have learned soo much about my body and love.- Love to Self, amazingly enough I have come to realized that a lot of my weight gain is rooted in not being able to love myself ....GOD LOVES ME... I accept and somewhat understand that .... Frank loves me... mmm hard one to understand yet God has taken me into this journey of exploring the reason why I can't accept my body and more than that LOVE it.....

My personal Trainer James, often tells me "YOU CAN DO IT" mmmm I have been amazed to see how much this AMAZING body can do... Thank you God for having this body, for years I haven't been able to say that this is a breakthrough........ the weight will come off as I learn to live a life of smart choices and healthy planning..... YET I AM CONTENT for what I've learned... still have a long way to go and again I have to realized that this choices are not just short term but a long life decision!!!

Love life...live for LIVE!!!

The try out......

All started back in December when I begun to watch "The biggest loser Asia" I was shock to see that people had the guts to go on TV and show their bodies I mean huge bodies... it sounded interesting so I kept on watching... somehow I begun to realize man I live such an unhealthy life... I don't sleep too much, I ate whenever I want and sometimes whatever I want... I think God begun to speak to me slowly about "HEALTH" it was not to start a new diet, which I did many times and it worked just for a little bit...

I realized that I needed to take care of my body if I wanted to keep going and be in the mission field... well I begun to look for a GYM ... went to many places I think I have visited most of HK GYM by now... The best in TST overlooking the harbour...my goodness the prices was $1,000 HKD per month... I thought If I have to change my life I must do something but it might cost a lot I got discouraged!
I asked them for a Corporation discount and they will give me $50 HKD per month...mmm not much... I went to California Fitness and they said they will give us 55 % off if we have over 11 people........... so......everything starts here:

April 24th marked a day in my life, I have been feeling so hopeless about my weight and the way I was feeling I was getting sick often and it just seemed almost impossible to move ( that's how I felt any way) I joined the GYM thinking I would enjoy the nice shower, sauna & maybe once in a while do some excersice ... it has been almost 2 years since I injured my foot in Kona doing power jumps so my body was completely out of shape............... I enjoyed the byke but most of the cardio machine gave me pain on my foot or knee... so Frank suggested to get a Personal Trainer ?!?!?! I was shock and mostly AFRAID... He believe I will learn how to work out and I will get more out of the GYM .....so he paid = ) and I begun this adventure of going to the GYM 5 times a week and twice having a personal trainer........ I must say I am loving it.... I=my body is slowly changing I feel much better and I love the workouts.......I couldn't do 10 minutes in level 1 on the byke now I do 60minutes in level 8 no problem... God has been soo much part of this I dont want to do anothe DIET I want to live healthy and I want to help other to live that way.... it's amazing to see how much emphasis we put on the SPIRIT and not in our BODY but God is slowly teaching me the importance of having a healthy life!

I am afraid to fall YES...and many times I do I FALL but I know that I am in a journey that God is leading me on... not Atkins, or south beach or no sugar or milkshakes NO I want to live like this for the rest of my life....... BUT the question is AM I ABLE TO DO IT??????????

I am writing this blog for my self today when I see my body changing and maybe come back in a few months and remind myself that I CAN DO THIS and that being overweight is NOT part of God's plan for my life and that is possible to live a HEALTHY LIFE......

Off to sleep.............

Un mundo diferente!?

A different world..

Many people told me "Marriage is hard" specially the first 12 months :) and yes is difficult but Oh is soo good! Is good to not go to sleep alone and to have someone to share and to talk and to argue and to discuss and to cry and to pray and to laugh and to tease and to...........uggh Sharing is beautiful! Humans were made to share!

2010 has been a rough time and not because of marriage but bc everything around seems like a big blur and Trusting God is taking everything that is within me to really believe that there's a way out.........

I would like to help people...people in distress, slavery, darkness, sadness, hopeless, I WANT TO GO WHERE THE POOR & NEEDY ARE.............

De tu verdad YO saciarme!

Ultimamente me he sentido tan lejos de Dios y tan alejada de la verdad de su corazon y de la libertad de lo que Jesus es, de la simpleza de escuchar su sencillo y tierno wisper in my heart.... busy schedules and people can sometimes robar lo que realmente Jesus es!

2010... The year of the unknown!!!

Well we have been in 2010 for 21 days already I must say that it has not been the greatest start of the Year, I found a old journal from 2006 and realized though how good God is with me!

My heart always worry about things ahead, people, weight, etc... hubby does bring a huge sense of calmness when everything around seems to be spinning around.

My life is quite different from those years when i was alone now I have a husband and 14 people that trust me and sometimes requires a lot from me... I have been feeling tired and with much to do... I hope on our little trip to Thailand God speaks to me... I want to hear God and see His power.... sometimes we are more evident of the enemy than we are of God... sad.. :{

The future looks cloudy and uncertain YET is another possibility for God to show who He is to us... THE CHILDREN!

me.......

The struggle......

15 years of struggle ....................days of being pump up to start something new, something different, something relevant that worked for someone. For 5 years I went to a doctor that was weird, my dad has told me that there were some strange things but the results were extremely attractive! Since then it has been a struggle and I wonder if it will always be a struggle....


You might be wondering what is the struggle? my weight.. these days the enemy tries hard to condem me, discourage me and make me feel like a failure!!

I need God and revelation from Him!

Me.......