Playing...

So here is a picture of what the staff in YWAM Hong Kong does..... Me... Caryl... and Soyoung playing with Anna R brand new laptop.... it's amazing!!

More later....

Faby

Really?!?!?

So someone asked me...what was your dream when you were little? I had to stop and think a little....I don't recall having big dreams I always wanted to be a maid on the air...hehehehe... yeah one of those that serves you meals......but now I am glad I am not one of them ^^ ...... the thought of spending hours in an airplane sounds boring to me.....then I thought I wanted to be a banker......I am glad I didn't go for that the banks in Mexico suck so no much future there..... then I thought I wanted to be an accounter...mmmmmm glad again I didn't go for that one since I found out I hate money, well not money but the manage of it..... then I thought I wanted to be one of those girls that love history & politic science......kinda of glad my dad warned me that politics in Mexico weren't worth trying....... I think if I would have gone that way I will be a "hippie" right now...... I never thought I will be doing what I do..... never never never.....actually my parents and friends thought Faby will have 2 degrees, a handsome husband (that one I am still expecting it to happen ^^), a nice house (with a cat) and maybe 2 kids........ then God completely change the course of my life ......now I am in Asia with people that don't speak my language, speaking a language that I failed in high school because I hated it.......I just to sing U2 songs without knowing what was actually singing..... ^^...... looking back yeah I have the best JOB and the best BOSS........................... still waiting for the handsome husband and the 2 kids!
Life is not always what we expect, it's much better when we leave it at God's hands isn't?
Pictures??........................... me doing my job in 1997....... then just now...... ^^

Paris......................

Paris...... I always wanted to go there.....a place with soo much history, culture, art and just the idea sounds wonderful.........hehehehehe my friend which I met in Mexico was in France, I thought it's amazing that these days you can talk with anyone pretty much anywhere in the world...He was in France I was in Hong Kong and we were talking over the phone in Spanish. How cool is that? I am glad I Live in this Era and not 100 years a go when email nor phone were in people's imagination.... any way Paris sounds good....sigh...................
I want to go..... any volunteers???.........
By the way my body is suffering.....look at what I got myself into...no meditation, pure exercise.
http://www.bikramyoga.com.hk/main.aspx ..... you all be so proud of me.....
More later....now time to go to bed ^^

NOT lossing.....

Que no me pierda en la noche, que no me duerma en el vino,que no me pierda del camino,en el abrazo de la gente que tiene el corazon
Que no me pierda en la bruma, que no me duerma en el ruido,que no me encuentre confundido en el canto del que adula y que slo juega conmigo

Que no me pierda en el aplauso indiferente de esa gente que aparenta conmigo. Que no me pierda en un mundo que no entiende, que ha vendido ya su alma y sentido que no me pierda en la tarde, que no me duerma vencido que no me pierda en el aire cansado de respirar.

Que no me pierda en la sombra, que no me duerma en el brillo que no me pierda en el cario del que jura y que calcula y que nunca ha sido mi amigo

Que no me pierda en la duda,que no me duerma rendidoque no me pierda convencido en el llanto del que miente y que ya empe su destino

Que no me pierda en el aplauso indiferente de esa gente que aparenta conmigo que no me pierda en un mundo que no entiende,que ha vendido ya su alma y sentido que no me pierda en la tarde, que no me duerma vencido que no me pierda en el aire cansado de respirar que no me.....Que no me pierda en la noche, que no me duerma en el vino, ay noque no me aparte de mi destino, no me dejes sin tu cariono me dejes solo y perdido, sin ti no encuentro el camino,sin ti me quedo solitoque no me pierda en la sombra, que no me duerma en el brillo, ay noque no me quede sin tu cario, que no me pierda en la sombraque no me duerma en el brillo, ay no.Que no me pierda en el gnero inconciente que ha dejado ya su alma al olvido, no, no,que no me pierda en la risa complaciente del que espera algo a cambio conmigo.......................

Sooo glad to be inspired by good musicians like Diego Torres....sorry only spanish....what a pitty, the lyrics are great!!!

Still CANT put pictures up...someone help me..

Inside!

Somewhat feeling dissapointed, sad, lost and confused.......... today has been one of those days were my heart somehow aches, gotta learn to give up things, people and desires....

not an easy thing to do, I just know one thing today, GOD will never leave me, trick me, lie to me, missunderstanding me and stop loving me (that's a huge deal) ..... it brings relief to my heart that HE is always there to accept me, to embrace me and to love me........what an amazing thing that is...... someone told me today, I need to put my Hope in God... what a hard thing to do, when we tend to put our hope in people, situations, positions, places etc.... YES!

I'm in desperated need to really put my HOPE in God in everything that is in my life....my expectations, my logings, my desires, my hopes, my dreams,my plans, my failures, my shortfalls, MY LIFE....................

God's love is amazing yet many times soo hard to grasp..................... Need him desperately today!

Sorry if I just spealed out my guts..... just had to write it....this is the real ME...

I need a hug ^^

The beautiful weekend!

So this weekend has been one of the most productive weekends I have had, Friday nite I went to Yuen long to get some stuff at Jusco.....came back watched TV....then Saturday nite I slept in, clean the house for like ever.....my carpet seems to absorb all the dust that there is in the New Territories.....for real, no matter at what time I sweep there is always dust coming out of it.... any way I stayed at home and cooked and rest! I even took a nap....what a life uh??.... Sunday found out the church I was speaking at, cancel last minute sooo..... I stayed home and clean some more, actually yesterday I cleaned the kitchen and today the living room and my fish tank.... went to yuen long got some fish and now I am back home, pretty satisfied with my weekend!!

Hope this week not to be as stressful as last week......... nothing interesting happening made some decissions in my heart that will be good for the long run...... I want to watch SUPERMAN... I wonder?? do SUPERMANS really exist?!?!??!?!?!?!?! My dad told me they do....

I can't figure out what happened that I can't blog pictures.....

More later........

Spiritual Warfare.....

What a week has been this one, Monday off to pick up some furniture for the base...I got a new couch and a coffee table with glass......looks great (will post photos later) ...... ended up dead this morning I realized today as I lead worship, it was painful to play my guitar....regardless all that worship was good..... This last days I have been thinking in the real warfare that we live all of us that are on the frontier mission field......wow.........Good thing to know that our GOD is bigger than anything out there ^^........any way I am exhausted haven't taken a day off all worked all weekend......sorry I am not complaining ^^

About the picture??!?!?!?....... I wish I could have that with a nice dinner in a quiet place with good company..........wink ^^.................

more later..... Fabs

Humilty...

Humbled at worship today by my inability to pleased God with my heart rather than my performance......

This week has been all about looking into myself and see how desperate I am for God to change me........................

Going away for the weekend on a ledership retreat.....................'till then

Faby

The Man of my life..... part 1

This guy has the ability to:

Make me cry like no one in the world, he can read me between lines, almost guess what I am thinking, he challenges me, he knows the Bible like no one else I know, It's great he has something to say about almost anything, he remember dates and events very clear, he has the best memory, he is generous, he taught me how to pray for people, he taught me how to swim, he told me "I can do pretty much anything with God", he said " you can't always get what you want", he doesn't like my favorite singer, He taught me how to defend my country when someone else wants to put it down, He knows God, He knows how to argue, he has given me the best joys of my life and the saddest moments, he is the best encyclopedia, he showed me the ocean, he preaches very well, he is the best teacher, he knows about things I don't even know that exist, he speaks good english, he loves pancakes and pickels, he loves american football, he knows how to drive, he loves "Whoppers", .......finally he miss me a lot ......

This man is my Father....

Fabiola Ruesga

CATARSIS

What a day....I caught a cold from I don't know where.... maybe HK island so I've been in bed 'till Soyoung gave me a medicine that gave the energy to climb mount everest ^^...... I took 3 advils yesterday and felt fine 'till 10 o'clock then reality hit me....... didn't go to work stayed at home, slept and pray and cried!.....

I think I lost my patience and my ability to be nice and gentle................

Things that are in my mind today:
air, my head hurts, my phone is dead, maybe I did wrong, what happened?, I miss my mom, I wan to go to the beach, I need a hug, I want to worship, I want to be pure, I need GOD, I want to bless and love, I need patience, I want to watch ER, I like it here, I love China, I need to run, did I lost?, I don't like silence.............

What matters is something far more interior: faith expressed in love

Galatians 5:6

Faith is expressed in LOVE........LOVE what a hard word to explain.....

Me...