Face to the ground............

Words of truth.......... words of truth...... need to let go things that have been for too long in my heart......walls need to come down, fears need to go, fears of people, rejection, suffering, change, vurneability, YOU...........

It's been 10 years and today I realized that there are many things in my life that NEED TO GO........the memories, the thought of what I think I need.... walls need to come down............. the ideal, the momemtun, the guitar, the boldness, the strong character, the good communicator, the poet, the singer, the leader,

I THINK I AM FINALLY WILLING & READY...................... even though I'm full of fears my father is here to hold me through this...............

The weekend is gone....

Sometimes it's hard to make things clear
Or know when to face the truth
And I know that the moment is here
I'll open my heart and show you inside
My love has no pride
I feel with you I've got nothing to hide
So open your eyes and see who I am
And not who you want for me to be
I am only myself, myself

I don't wanna lose you now
We're gonna get through somehow
I don't wanna lose you now or ever
'Cause baby, I've finally found
The courage to stand my ground
But if you want me
I'll be around, Forever

We all make mistakes, We all lose our way
But we stood the test of time and I hope
That's the way it will stay
It's all up to you to tell me to go
'Cause it won't be me to walk away
When you're all that I know
And I know that..........................

Fly me to the moon

I WANT TO RUN AWAY................... If someone could fly me to the moon I will say YES in a heart beat!

off to sleep is 2 am.......

To believe

Today as I was brushing my teeth.... God speaks to me in random ways and at random times.... I suddenly heard "FAITH TO BELIEVE"

I NEED FAITH TO BELIEVE WHAT I CAN'T SEE NOR FEEL................. JESUS WOULD YOU HELP ME IN MY UNBELIEF!!

Off to study...................

the day.............

My day??? got up too early to practice worship, the weather is really changing and I am ready to wear my winter clothes!!!!
I don't know why I feel so tired I taught and then came home and tried to rest, I have been looking for TICKET but have not been able to get anything...sigh!!! I made a tres leches cake for dinner for Paul's b-day... dealing with people, issues and tireness......... somehow today I feel like something is missing it might just be that I am sooo tired I came home after dinner lay down for a sec the next minute (of what I thought was a minute) and hour and 15 minutes and I slept deeply because when I open my eyes Soyoung and Ahmee were staring at me... I went for a run and did exercise!!!! at least one thing that made me feel not as tired.......... finally I found out why my fish keep dying I have one serial killer...and angel fish (that should be named and "evil) he ate them all....... so now is in a separate place as SY will say he is reciving punishment..hahahahahah


What about the new look??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!

Ok, off to sleep............

pErFeCt lOvE....................

Thoughts inside of my mind:

It's late, I want chocolate, wake up early, exercise, Korean food, My church, My father's wisdom, my insecurities, my desires, the color orange, future, English, coffee, YOU, nice house, 2009????,mY fish died,
God, Love.....

"PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT ALL FEARS"

Off.................

Don't run away when you most want to....

When I want to run away when I see insecurity in my heart there's always a little light that tells me everything will be ok......

When I want to run away .................there's something that sometimes reminds me that you might not change....

I want to believe, I want to risk, I want to try, I want to desire and maybe for the first time I want something and I don't want to run away....... even when I really feels like to........

By the way the beer???? ...... In Shenzhen I tried Chinese beer for the first time..

Shouldn't but I Am...

Shouldn't I post this when is 12:38 AM an I am sooo tired and sleeppy..

My heart is ..........EMPTY.................................wish to be full

New house.....

So we have been looking for a new place to move and it seems impossible so we made that decission that we are not moving....so I have decided to make my house pretty...This week not an easy one..... seems like ages since I came back from outreach yet it's only been 4 weeks.... I miss my students and mu school...the loving mood that we always operated in..... cant hardly believe that I will be starting another school..I must be crazy..... things in my heart are a bit blurrrry..
I have been in Yuen long this week more that I've ever been....I am addicted to YL..
Is not a good feeling being watch...... In many ways I have felt in the corner this week....yet my heart is well!!!
off to sleep....